Weekend Recap

Friday: After being released from the hospital, I spent the day asleep, seriously I slept til 3 pm, I did get up and made cookies and dinner, Friday evening I had a complete break down, i was just at a spot in my life with this illness that I felt I couldn't keep going, I was in a lot of pain and it wouldn't go away, I felt like I needed a good cry, then i went on some IC chats and the wonderful amazing ladies there helped me a great deal, there isn't a lot of people who deals with this but they that do are awesome. 

I tried to watch hockey with Andrew but i couldn't focus on it and I kept disturbing him even thought he didn't complain, I knew i should leave him alone, so I went and watch "Our Idiot Brother" it is funny but a lot of language, but it really made me feel better, sometimes we need to just let loose and enjoy the moment. 

Saturday: I decided I would try and work a couple hours on Saturday so I did, I worked from 9:30-2, the ladies I work with are truly truly awesome ladies, we have so much fun yet we do our work, since I got a new Supervisor, I don't mind working there anymore, a good supervisor makes all the difference.

Andrew picked me up at 2 pm and we went to McDonald's for lunch, I have been boycotting McD's all of September but yesterday I figured i would go with the family, I tried there new Santa Fe Veggie Wrap, it is amazingly good, I love Santa Fe anything, i came home and took a nap, made Mac n cheese for supper, then i had a burst of energy so I cleaned the house like a mad woman, ha ha.  Then it was hockey time ( we are a hockey family, like as foot ball in the US, hockey is the sport in Canada), Boston was playing and they did a great job and won off course, i was up til 2 am because I had a longer then I should have had nap. 

Sunday: At our church today we had the Northeast Christian College Chorale

 they came last year as well and they always do a great job. 

I have been snacking on this all day 

they have to be my all time favourite and i may have sat down and ate most of a box, remind me of that when i am complaining of the 10 lbs. i've gained  :p

Moses and his girlfriend came for lunch today, Roast beef, mashed potatoes, corn and gravy

was yumm

Watching hockey game now with hubby, Winnipeg vs Anaheim Ducks

Have a great week 

3 years and Im still alive

Today marks 3 years since they told me i might not make it

July 2, 2011 I was walking thru the mall with my daughter when suddenly I got a weird pain like feeling on the right side of my chest, i kinda got a scare bc it hit me suddenly, so I did try to walk the pain off, the more I walked the worst it was, I went into the pharmacy to see if he had any suggestions, he took one look at me and made me sit down because I looked very miserable and clammy he said , he suggested he wanted to get me to the ER and when i told him what i felt like he called my hubby for me and he came to get me and took me right to the ER, they took one look at me and whisked me back to have a dr check me right away... it was a very scary night for me, the doctor came in and asked some questions, did some test and then he diagnosed me with Leukaemia they admitted me as well....I lost my mind, I called my parents, they were heart broken, friends and family far and near sent their thoughts.. all the while thinking I had this disease that no one wants to hear about..

4 days in, I asked for a second opinion...

thankfully the dr was able to do some test and told me that i had a growth on my chest cavity, blocking my breathing tube to my heart... it sounded very scary but it was no Leukaemia...

She said she would like to do a biopsy and she didn't feel comfortable in putting me under, i was to stay awake.

The morning of the biopsy, I was freaking out because I knew this was going to be painful... went to the OR and it was bustling with many doctors and nurses, they had me lay on my belly, strapped to a bed bc if i moved it could puncture my lung, I laid there so still yet in so much pain, i tried to take my mind off what was going on..yet to hear the doctors around me talking about it, listening to them prepare the needle to freeze me, the needle nearly drove me crazy it was massive and i could hear and see everything..

then they finally had the needle in and was talking amongst themselves and how they cannot drain it because its in a weird spot, so they had two needles going by now and they were finally able to drain some of it off, the smell and the odour was gross, i didn't like being alone during this but off course no one could come in there with me.. they did drain a big bottle off and told me i would have no more pain...

wel before the night was over my pain was back...

they felt at a lost at that point, they did bring a surgeon in and she was scared to do the surgery bc it was very risky... but without it I would be in constant pain..

I told them I wanted to go ahead with it..they sent me home bc I would have a couple week to wait for surgery.. I was back and forth to the hospital for pain control, missing a lot of time from work, even one time I had to take a ambulance from work, I couldn't breathe

October 6 was the day I was to go for my surgery, i quit my job on October 4th because I never knew what the outcome was going to be... 

My family were all here, they couldn't say for sure that I would pull thru this because it was so risky and so close to my heart

The surgery lasted for 12 hours, it was a very long time for my family who were waiting and not sure how it was going to work or if I would be with them again...8 pm that night they brought me out of surgery, all be it I was on a breathing tube bc my lung had to be taken out and this growth cut off it, she got my lungs working again..

6 days later I was walking out of the hospital with a lot of drainage tubes, stitches etc, but to this day I have no had a problem with it, the doctor was so amazing, she even now asks how I am doing, I am so thankful that this part of my life is done...

From that day, i realized it helps to have a second opinion because at first glance, they can be wrong and thankfully he was.  after my check up last year she said she didn't need to see me again because it was all gone and she was 100% sure it wouldn't come back. 

I'm thankful, so thankful 

Confessional Fridays

TIme to Confess again Lovelies

I love Confessional Fridays, hosted by the beautiful Leslie, who is due to have Sweet baby Caroline very soon, I am hoping it will be next Saturday (12th) on my Birthday 

1) I confess when I posted this picture on Facebook last night as a joke, it made me wish I was pregnant 

notpregnantjustfat

Some people didn't read the Hashtag and I got all kinds of compliments, ROFL 

2) I confess being back to work full time after work part time for several months, has taken a lot out of me this week, I am mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted

3) I confess I am addicted to these TV shows

Love it or List it

Republic of Doyle

Hockey of course

I have to watch it :) 

4) I confess that I fall in love every day with my hubby, I love it when he texts me and asked how i am feeling during the day , he gives me butterflies when he gives me the "look" (know what I mean), even after being married for 12 years, he still gives me butterflies

What's on your mind to confess this week?

Have a great weekend 

October Goals

Posts you can expect to see during October

~ Wednesdays for Women ( DONE)

~31 random facts about me for my 31st Birthday ( DONE)

~Guest postings ( DONE)

~3 years of being alive after being told I wouldn't make it ( DONE)

Wednesdays for Women

To uplift and encourage 
Source 

Our friendships with our sisters in Christ are like recipes of goodness for us. They bake up something special. You may have heard that saying, "In the cookies of life, friends are the chocolate chips". Friends are that sweet extra in life and even sweeter is friendship among believers in Christ. 

Why is a recipe for fellowship and friendship with our sisters in Christ is so Important? Let's check out the ingredients and see what they do. 

Sisters In Christ Friendship Recipe


• Shortening - Provides texture. Our fellowship and friendship with our sisters in the Lord can add much depth and texture to our lives. We blend together in unity as part of the body of Christ.
• Sugar - Adds sweetness. Our fellowship with our sisters adds such a sweet taste to our lives. If we didn't have sugar in our cookies, we'd sure miss it. The same is with our fellowship with our sisters. We can't leave it out of our lives.
• Eggs - Holds ingredients together. Sisters in the Lord are someone to lean on. We are held together by fellowship with them. We are stronger because of them, their prayers, and their love in the Lord. We have a special bond in Christ.
• Vanilla - Adds flavor. Sisters add that flavor we need. They give us that extra sensation. Without friends and fellowship we become kind of bland.
• Flour - Adds substance. We need the substance a sister in the Lord can add. They give us many things by way of mentoring us when we don't even know it. Their shared testimonies and way they live their lives has an impact on us.
• Baking Soda - Leavens. Leavening agents in baking helps to lighten the dough. Friendship with our sisters in Christ lightens our burdens through their prayer and encouragement.
• Salt - Enhances flavor. We know that friendships add flavor and just when we need it, they help improve the tastefulness and quality of our lives. Friends are the type of people that know just what we are going through and are there when we need them.
• Semi Sweet Chocolate Chips - - The kind of chocolate chips we normally add to our cookies is semi sweet. Our sister friends tell us what they feel and think and that's okay. They can be honest and truthful to us. "Iron sharpeneth iron" (Proverbs 27:17).
• Nuts...Optional - Just a little craziness in a sister friend is great! Sometimes a little zaniness in our friends can be just the ingredient we need.

Conclusion:
Friendships take a lot of time and effort to bake up but they are worth it when we sense that sweet aroma and special bond that they bring. Friends that have Jesus in common will have lasting relationships, not just here on earth, but will dwell with Christ together throughout eternity. 

"A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there
is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother." Proverbs 18:24.

It's Ok

I love this link up and thought it would be fun to try it out, find out more about it here 

Hey, its ok if...

1) I am feeling very lazy and do not want to do anything at all right now.. all i want to do is get some blogs scheduled and watch TV

2) i am super pumped about these babies that I got online and cannot wait til they arrive

3) I came home from work today and hubby cooked dinner, he made chilli- great dinner for a cold rainy day

( I always feel guilty when he cooks, but he does so good)

4) I need to take time for myself, away from everything and technology

5) i am so excited for my birthday to come, I just like to be able to eat cake without feeling guilty

Whats "OK" in your world this week??