Wednesday, March 29, 2017

6 things Mandy Taught me

My dear sweet friend Mandy went home to be with Jesus on Tuesday, March 21, 2017, as a result of a horrible house fire. 

I was on Facebook and I started reading a post and I am like I know this person, she looks familiar, I was not looking clearly so early in the morning... then I realized this was my friend Mandy and her husband and 2 babies passed away. Her oldest two babies and her mother in law was able to escape the house fire.

The story

My dearest Mandy, ( author of Worshipful Living )
I am not sure these words are adequate to show my love and admiration for you. No matter what I needed you were there with words of encouragement, words that Jesus would speak, you live for him and now you can worship at his feet. We often question why the good die young but Jesus wanted you to worship at his feet.

6 Things you taught me

1) Do not be ashamed to be a Christian- let my light shine. Many times I would struggle with letting people know that I was a Christian, but after talking to you Mandy, I now let everyone know and people are so respectful and I love that.

2) How to pray- You taught me how to pray, you taught me to set up a prayer journal and talk to Jesus like a friend which he is.

3) It's OK to need a Mum break- life can sometimes get hard and we can get tired... we cook, clean, do homework, home school, plus all the other activities that kids need to do, it is OK to get a sitter and have a "day to refresh and rejuvenate"

4) How to share my faith- we had many a conversation about this. I have a desire to share my faith with my friends, you gave me many tips and some mini bible studies to share with them.

5) How to read my bible each day- I participated in your monthly scripture writing challenge, I am on my 2nd year and I am so happy to have 2 years worth of scriptures at the end of this year, every time I look at these books, you will be in my mind. 

6) You taught me how to love people and my husband better because the love you had for people and your husband always was clear to anyone who knew you.

Thank You, Mandy, Today I lived life differently. I smelled my child slowly, I chatted with them longer, I laughed more.... I spent the day talking to God and Thanking Him for everything... I asked God to please tell you what a wonderful legacy you left behind and how many lives you have touched in the last few days you have been gone.... You truly lived a life of Worship, just like your blog name  ðŸ’œ

Rest in Peace my friend, Go rest high on that mountain, your work on earth is done, go to heaven rejoicing, you finished well, you are still speaking to us with your scheduled post, Mandy the post that has shown up in the past week have almost taken my breath away, they were hand picked by God because of course, he knew you would be in heaven. 

In Loving Memory of: 
Mandy 💜
Scott 💙
Judah 💚
Lizzie 💗

Forever Loved and in our hearts 

Take time to read through the blogs linked up here as we share memories of our friend and sister in Christ.

Friday, March 24, 2017

Friday Date Night Idea

Curl up on the couch and watch a movie together

My husband is not a movie person at all, so here is what we do sometimes
He will pick a movie or a show to watch, I will sit and watch with him even if i don't enjoy it because  it is about Compromise, he does the same for me, trust me he isn't a Momma Mia person ;)

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

The silent Killer

Today I want to share my heart and soul with you, I have debated on writing this because I didn't want anyone to know what I was dealing with, I was hiding behind the truth... I didn't want to share how I really felt mentally, physically or emotionally.

I kept thinking if you share this and people find out, they will think you are crazy, you will not have any friends if you share what you deal with on a daily basis... besides what do you have to be anxious over.. you have everything you could ever want : a husband who spoils you and loves you unconditionally, a beautiful daughter, a son and a daughter in law to be,  2 amazing parents and inlaws, a job that I truly love, friends, etc, the list could go on and on.

The symptoms can be: 

  • Feelings of panic, fear, and uneasiness.
  • Problems sleeping.
  • Cold or sweaty hands or feet.
  • Shortness of breath.
  • Heart palpitations.
  • Not being able to be still and calm.
  • Dry mouth.
  • Numbness or tingling in the hands or feet.

Deep down I know I have nothing to be anxious over, but it is so hard to make my head believe that, I have been on meds for anxiety for so many years and I had one pill that was working great, then after 7 years it stopped working at all, so they have been trying other ones, while trying the other ones, the anxiety has been super bad, I mean to the point of my legs feeling rubbery, feeling like I could pass out.. it is so scary.. then I over think and really think I am going to die and leave my husband and daughter, this my friends scares me like you wouldn't believe...

Most times I can pull myself out of the attack by finding someone to talk to ( Thank you Melissa, Ashley, Chris and my hubby), something to listen to, something to ground me, read my bible etc, but at 2 am if this happens I do not have the person I can call or text so I have to find something to listen to, I am not a music person at all but sometimes music will help me get thru it.
I also do a lot of writing when I am having a panic attack, it helps calm me down, take my mind off it and put it on something else. 

Overall Anxiety is incredibly scary, it makes you feel like you are out of control, sometimes you can even feel like you are outside of your body and that scares me mostly. 
I feel like I need a break from my thoughts, a long vacation on a warm beach somewhere... 
My anxiety started getting really bad back in February when I left my old job to come to my new job, I am not sure why because I am completely happy here, I would appreciate any advice, thoughts or prayers.