7.10.2017

Living with Chronic Pain



If you ask me any given day how I am feeling... Oh I am good or I am fine, when deep down I just wanna lay my head on your shoulder and sob because I am tired of this pain, it has been 7 years this coming October and I have no idea how I have made it thru thus far.


 It is so tiring to hear people try to "diagnose" you with their work from home business and I am not bashing any of those things because like us all I have tried it, the only thing that sounds promising right now is Young Living, I know several people who have tried this and it has helped.  People are always saying as well go talk to a naturopath, well I have been told by my family dr that this is not the case and I trust her 100% and her decisions for my health. ( by no means am I knocking naturopaths) 


 I don't want to come off as a "complainer," a "Debbie Downer," "needy," etc.  Let's be honest everyone wants to be around positive people, no one wants to be around the girl they think is "whining" all the time about how they feel, even if that girl is one thousand percent justified in that "whining," "complaining," or whatever else she wants to do or say about her chronic illness.  Can this really suck sometimes and not be fair?  Of course, but unfortunately it's the reality of things and how the world works.

I get bored and more frustrated when I talk about me and the pain I am in daily.  I would much rather hear of happy up beat positive things.   If I am having a rough day, I just want to say I am fine and have that part of the conversation over. 

This weekend I had several people tell me they felt like my pain was all in my head, I wanted to slap them, and wish this pain on them but this pain is not a pain that I would share with anyone. 

I am not asking for pity or for you to feel bad for me, no all I am asking is for you to pray for me as depression over chronic pain is very real, right now I come home from work and get my pj's on and I do not want to talk to anyone, I lay on my bed and watch netflix, some hospital shows in case someone on there has this same type of pain and I can learn something. 

It is hard to believe it has been 7 years and other times it feels like it has just begun as I feel like I am still no further ahead with help. Have tried much medication and not one thing is helping.  It is so hard 


mentally 

         draining 


9 comments

  1. Praying for you today, Terri. May God bring you peace and comfort in the days ahead.

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  2. Terri, I am so sorry that you are dealing with this chronic problem. I believe your pain is very real and there are so many people that are dealing with pain that seems to have no resolution. I hope that you will find relief sometime soon. - Amy
    http://stylingrannymama.com/

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  3. I deal with chronic back pain and it is hard to not succumb to depression. I will pray for relief and cheer.

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  4. Praying for you - only YOU know what you are going through

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  5. Lord God, please alleviate Terri's pain and help her to somehow experience joy in Your presence. Let her know how to go about her life so that she doesn't have to feel depression, and help the people around her not to be insensitive. In Jesus' name, amen!

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  6. I am so sorry for your pain, my mom has been living with chronic pain for 20 plus years and has been misdiagnosed throughout that time. She still is unclear about what is causing it, but has recently been told a new diagnosis and is going to try out some medication for that. It is so hard to watch her and know that there is nothing I can do, but pray. She too gets into depression when the pain has bad flare ups and I will keep you in my prayers as well. I may not be able to completely understand the pain, but I have witnessed someone I love dearly go through this pain since I was a very young child and wish I could just take it all from you guys. No one deserves to go through life like that, but with God we can overcome all and my prayers are very much with you!

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  7. So sorry for your continued pain, Terri. I know that God has a purpose in it for you. Praying for you. Let me know if you would like my help. Blessings, Amy

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  8. So sorry to hear you are going through this, Terri!

    I think looking at our bodies as a spiritual teacher is a fantastic idea. Whenever I have a headache, wrist pains, back problems, earaches, etc. pain is my teacher both physically and spiritually. Do I have an earache: Is my hearing ok with the Lord? Has my back been immobilized: Have I been the support of the truth I've been made for? Does a family member have a rash: Have I been internalizing toxic attitudes? Etc.

    What I'm trying to say here is that our pains are of great significance and not to be considered a small trifle...

    2 Cor 4:16-18
    Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

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  9. i know the pain when someone says "it is all in your head" I have learned to be compassionate towards people who say that because they just do not understand. But it is so hard when there is no understanding.

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